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"A mesmerizing account of the well-known story of Matsyagandha ... and her transformation from fisherman’s daughter to Satyavati, Santanu’s royal consort and the Mother/Progenitor of the Kuru clan." - Hindustan Times

"Themes of fate, morality and power overlay a subtle and essential feminism to make this lyrical book a must-read. If this is Madhavan’s first book in the Girls from the Mahabharata series, there is much to look forward to in the months to come." - Open Magazine

"A gleeful dollop of Blytonian magic ... Reddy Madhavan is also able to tackle some fairly sensitive subjects such as identity, the love of and karmic ties with parents, adoption, the first sexual encounter, loneliness, and my favourite, feminist rage." - Scroll

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8 April 2005

Here I go again....


Sometimes faking it.



Being a chameleon.








  1. Hey eM!

    I think you did the thing that most naturally came to you - celebrating randomness! :-)

    I don't know if you meant it to be that way.... or saw it that way. But, in hindsight, u just may! I saw it that way. I think it's good. Do let me know if I am wrong.

    Take care...

  2. Hi eM
    It sounds like my life as well except I start with all-over-the-place-ing and work my way up.

    I love the "sometimes faking it"

  3. Your post reminded me of this Paul Simon song called Fakin' it.

    Fakin' It

    When she goes, she’s gone.
    If she stays, she stays here.
    The girl does what she wants to do.
    She knows what she wants to do.
    And I know I’m fakin’ it,
    I’m not really makin’ it.

    I’m such a dubious soul,
    And a walk in the garden
    Wears me down.
    Tangled in the fallen vines,
    Pickin’ up the punch lines,
    I’ve just been fakin’ it,
    Not really makin’ it.

    Is there any danger?
    No, no, not really.
    Just lean on me.
    Takin’ time to treat
    Your friendly neighbors honestly.
    I’ve just been fakin’ it,
    I’m not really makin’ it.
    This feeling of fakin’ it –
    I still haven’t shaken it.

    Prior to this lifetime
    I surely was a tailor.
    (“Good morning, Mr. Leitch.
    Have you had a busy day?”)
    I own the tailor’s face and hands.
    I am the tailor’s face and hands and
    I know I’m fakin’ it,
    I’m not really makin’ it.
    This feeling of fakin’ it –
    I still haven’t shaken

  4. Mandar: I don't think it's so much the randomness.. just some words to articulate how I feel right now. But you're free to interpret any way you like :)

    Satya: Yeah, hyphens and brackets are what I do best!

    Mint: Thanks! I usually work the other way too.. I just thought all over the place fit better at the end.. poetic license and all

    Anurag: Brilliant song.. but from a male viewpoint unfortunately ;)

  5. like a chameleon!
    that hits home:)
    thanx for what u said on my blog-
    i like the natural flow of ure thoughts.
    will be reading u too.:)

  6. Nice to see confused isn't on that list. Thats always good :)

  7. Still catching up on your last posts..
    If you ever meet JJ Valaya abroad, where not as many people know who he is... then it's really fun. You can be posh and sit in one place while he comes up to be interviewed by you, then when you're done you can nod politely and he will get up and make place for the next designer. Makes up (and some) for all the grovelling we do in India!!

  8. Kay: Thank you, thank you! Keep coming back, aight?

    Vignesh: Confused? Hmmmm... I'm reserving judgement on that, just now :) Confusion is like a natural state of mind for me, it doesn't really need to be mentioned.

    Mangs: Now you're being all posh and all, talking of meeting JJ in phoren. I don't think THAT'S ever going to happen to me :(

  9. Very nice, yet again! I think I will probably go the reverse way and end up with overanalysing.


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