My latest book is The One Who Swam With The Fishes.

"A mesmerizing account of the well-known story of Matsyagandha ... and her transformation from fisherman’s daughter to Satyavati, Santanu’s royal consort and the Mother/Progenitor of the Kuru clan." - Hindustan Times

"Themes of fate, morality and power overlay a subtle and essential feminism to make this lyrical book a must-read. If this is Madhavan’s first book in the Girls from the Mahabharata series, there is much to look forward to in the months to come." - Open Magazine

"A gleeful dollop of Blytonian magic ... Reddy Madhavan is also able to tackle some fairly sensitive subjects such as identity, the love of and karmic ties with parents, adoption, the first sexual encounter, loneliness, and my favourite, feminist rage." - Scroll



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17 November 2019

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Lily and me on a night walk. I was pretending to be a French model with my little white fluffy dog (and my new shift dress! Better lit photos at a later point.) And she was all like "get on with it, Temporary Caretaker." still we're very photogenic, me and Lily. #rescuedog #bangalorediary #whatiworetoday

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15 November 2019

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(This is a mushy post.)Ten years ago I met a cute boy and asked him to a party and then took a wistful picture of him because I was in a bad relationship and he was the sort of person I wanted to be with and I didn't think that would happen. I posted this five years ago also, and I can never get over how our lives collided to make this happen, and the everyday stuff of a long relationship is more romantic in a weird sitting around in your underwear and being gross sometimes and all of it: sleeping, eating, living, having cats, farting occasionally, traveling together it's all so much better than I thought was possible ten years ago so I guess I'm reminding myself of that fact. #throwback

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From yesterday: view from the roof garden in Bangalore. Storm clouds in the distance. High rises on the right and the military airport in front of us. Every now and then a little plane will go over and it's ridiculously loud, so you do pay a price for the pretty. #traveldiary #bangalore

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12 November 2019

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K's mum's dog who we are looking after while she travels, is a sweet rescue Pom/Spitz and still cringes when I try to pet her. She was found in horrific circumstances and adopted from @cupabangalore and it still makes me angry to think about how awful humans can be. #poem #adoptdontshop #rescuedog

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9 November 2019

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Really feeling myself at the Chandigarh Lit Fest this morning, even though I'm severely coffee deprived. This is my new co-ord set, a present from my aunt in Hyderabad. The pants make me feel like a sexy Obelix, which is a nice way to feel. Too sleepy for more (and have a long day, ending with train back to Delhi and red eye to Bangalore tonight) so please just admire me. #whatiworetoday

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7 November 2019

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I already Instagram storied one of these guavas yesterday, but since we're going out of town we picked a whole bushel to carry with us. That's right. We PICKED them. Off our very own guava tree in our very own terrace garden. This is like next level balcony gardening and it's all down to Ram Lal, our excellent and devoted gardener (Seriously, he might love our garden more than I do.) I just swan around like the Countess of Downton Abbey and approve his purchases or plan things of my own and ask him to execute them. The garden is more expensive than the rest of our household, but it's totally worth it, especially at times like these. Wait till next summer when our mango sapling starts to fruit as well. I never thought I'd be THIS into a garden, but it's amazing to be surrounded by green growing things. #terracegarden #eatwhatyougrow #guavatree

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3 November 2019

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I don't love this dress. I bought it two years ago on the streets of East Delhi, it's some export surplus Korean thing and this was before I had my fibroids removed so it didn't fit great around the stomach but yesterday I was going to a party and I wondered what it would look like now minus three massive fibroids on my uterus and whaddya know? It fits much better! I'm still not crazy about it, the lines are a little weird but I wore it out anyway because I was pleased with my lovely resilient body for bouncing back. My body is not a temple as friends know but it is as Mary Oliver says "a warm soft animal" which I am sometimes happy with. #whatiworetoday

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2 November 2019

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A selfie I took a few months ago at the start of this apocalypse. I like the steampunk feels. #partyingattheendoftheworld #delhiair

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31 October 2019

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I wrote some verse for the climate change deniers/whatabouters amongst us. #poetry #climatechange

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29 October 2019

The One Where I Realise I Was Always A Phoebe

How many times do you think you've watched Friends? For me, I don't even think I have a number. Friends wasn't so much watched as it was absorbed by osmosis. It was a late night TV thing, back when I still had cable TV. Somewhere in the world, there's always a Friends re-run on, and somewhere in the world, someone is watching it. I dressed to Friends, letting the actors be my background noise, letting the jokes roll over me as I read a book on the sofa. Sometimes I'd pause what else I was doing, look up and truly laugh--laugh again at the same bit that I might have not found funny the last time I saw it, but this time, the humour landed perfectly. I think that's the nice thing about a show you watch over and over again, you keep finding new things to delight in. It's why I re-read so much. Apart from being comforted that the words are exactly the same no matter what my life looks like at the moment, it's also discovery again and again. A sentence that may not have held your interest the last time, emerges now as the thing that the whole chapter rests on. Similarly with Friends, each time I watch it, I have a different reaction.



In Super Woke Twenty Nineteen, there are a lot of things that Friends gets wrong. The gay jokes. The trans jokes. I mean, the first time Chandler Bing takes Monica to see his father in the cabaret, and he's like, "Theeeeere's Daddy!" I laughed. The third time, I waited for the joke, still enjoying it. The final time, two years ago, I cringed as the laugh track exploded. Monica's fat phase was funny too, until it wasn't. Obviously she has internalised her lack of control over food and now it shows in her obsessive cleaning, her need to stay on top of everything. Remember when she decides to train Chandler and goes running every day with him? How is Monica a good chef who still eats absolutely nothing? As the show goes on, Monica gets thinner and shriller, by the end of it, Courtney Cox's face is all eyes, she's baking Phoebe's grandmother's cookie recipe and she is the only one in her kitchen who is not affected by the smell. She makes jam and hands it out. She is always cooking for her friends, always feeding them, and never eating anything herself. Ross makes jokes about how much she used to eat, and Monica shrivels away from that version of herself.
Now before you tell me none of the female Friends ate anything, that's not true. Rachel is frequently seen eating: remember the time her and Chandler find the cheesecake that's been mistakenly delivered to their door? She eats a sandwich with Joey (and gets yelled at for wasting food), she describes Emma's birthday cake with love, like someone who's actually eaten it. (Sidebar: Monica too talks about this birthday cake, how she used to hitchhike in school to get to their frosting. What happened to you, Monica? Did you lose your joy along with your appetite?) Phoebe frequently went on about being vegetarian, so I assume she ate something--remember when she was pregnant and wanted to eat meat and kept making herself massive sandwiches? So Phoebe ate. And Rachel ate. And Monica cooked, and presided over her kitchen, never stopping to feed herself at all. (You can tell me if I'm wrong, which I'm sure you will!)


ROSS. Now Ross is both the worst of the Friends and also, sometimes, the only Friend that makes any sense. You see Chandler (my personal favourite, everyone's personal favourite) the Jim Halpert of Friends, the one who mocks them along with us. If Friends was a break-the-fourth-wall sort of show, Chandler would be turning to the camera all the time and making faces at us like Fleabag. But Ross is a cipher. He's friends with everyone because of his sister, and his college roommate. The Friends, we understand, have no other friends. (Except for Phoebe, and in a world where PHOEBE is the Friend most like your regular friends, you know times have changed.) But Ross doesn't seem to like his gang so much. He has a science-y job he loves and wants to talk about and they're always shutting him down. He tries to take risks in his personal life, they shut him down. At the same time, he is an A1 Doucheface. Being extra possessive with Rachel? The whole thing with his male nanny? Being upset that his son was playing with a Barbie? EMILY? Come on, Ross. Why do we like you again?
Joey, however, was the anti-Ross. Reassuringly stupid, and SO stupid that you wondered how his friends made conversation with him, let alone how he got all the smart and sexy women to want to be with him. Joey starts out skeezy, but the writers of the show course-corrected and soon he was just a human Cookie Monster. All Joey talks about is food and sex, and after watching him with jam all over his face or spouting nonsense words in lieu of French, you wonder how anyone could find him sexy at all. He became sexless, even when that ill-advised Rachel hook-up storyline happened, you thought, not oh my god but kinda ew. Like kissing your much younger brother. However, Joey was not afraid to be himself, unlike Ross. He embraced his stuffed penguin and his jam face and his sheer dumbness which makes him much more appealing to watch than Ross, fucking it up over and over again.


And now to Phoebe, who I think should have gotten her own spinoff, not Joey ffs. Phoebe with the evil twin and the exciting back-story and the random skills she just pulled out of her pocket. Phoebe who was essentially the most feminist Friend. She did not give a shit about societal rules. Want to have a baby for your brother? Go right ahead. Want to sing your songs for a whole coffee shop even though your voice isn't conventionally pretty? YAS QUEEN. Phoebe was a "you do you" before "you do you" was a thing. (Sidebar: please watch the amazing Lisa Kudrow in the amazing HBO show The Comeback if you haven't already.) When Friends was first popular in India, not 25 years ago, but closer to 15, when it became a byword because of all the re-runs and so on, obviously my friends and I would try and divide up the female Friends. Everyone was mostly a Monica. Rachel was harder to categorize, though now in retrospect, I see that we were definitely more Rachel-skewed than Monica, though no one wanted to admit it. And I? I was always a Phoebe "because you're so vague sometimes." I used to be a little insulted. Monica and Rachel were more my idea of what women should be, so beautiful, so perfect, so conventional. But now I wear my Phoebe badge with pride.