My latest book is The One Who Swam With The Fishes.
"A mesmerizing account of the well-known story of Matsyagandha ... and her transformation from fisherman’s daughter to Satyavati, Santanu’s royal consort and the Mother/Progenitor of the Kuru clan." - Hindustan Times
"Themes of fate, morality and power overlay a subtle and essential feminism to make this lyrical book a must-read. If this is Madhavan’s first book in the Girls from the Mahabharata series, there is much to look forward to in the months to come." - Open Magazine
"A gleeful dollop of Blytonian magic ... Reddy Madhavan is also able to tackle some fairly sensitive subjects such as identity, the love of and karmic ties with parents, adoption, the first sexual encounter, loneliness, and my favourite, feminist rage." - Scroll
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14 September 2004
The Ministry Of Mind Fuck
My friends have gone on a whole let's-fix-Mynna-up kick and so I've been faced with three boys so far, out of which two were rather comely.
And it's fun, yes, to be the focus of attention, to not know what an evening can bring, to wonder actually whether you're going to be kissed and not take it for granted. But at the end of the day, for the brief moment I was alone, I found myself staring at my ceiling (which is painted lavender with lemon spirals) and thinking, "Oh god, K. why did you leave me?"
Those unexpected moments are the worst. You're doing fine, all hunky-dory, and then your mind decides to fuck with you a little. I can't do this again, I can't. I can't have an "our song" again, explain my life again, get someone so well again, have private jokes.... it's just too hard, and too much work.. and reader, yes, I am a quitter.
How did this turn out to be a post on K? It was supposed to be a 'happy-happy-joy-joy' type post, telling you all about my single weekend and the absolute hottie of a 19 year old I met Saturday night, (who, by the way, looked exactly, but exactly, like Ashton Kutcher) and about the guy I met on Sunday (who Dhati gave this blog address to and who reads it so I can't tell you very much about him. Go read his blog). You see? The Ministry Of Mind Fuck is working overtime!
So later today, I will tell you about the weekend.... how was yours, by the way?
EDIT: Many of my "regulars" (stand up, take a bow, you know who you are) must have noticed my sidebar getting more and more crowded. Nope, I'm not going nuts. I've just always been a kind of pack-rat and whatver looks like a cool feature to add, promptly is. I love my blogpet, don't you? His name is Timothy (when I was a kid I had a girl doll called Timothy coz I thought it was too pretty a name for a boy). If you click on him, he'll talk to you :) Then there's my babel fish (if you haven't got the reference, run don't walk, to the nearest bookshop and buy The Hitchhikers Guide To The Galaxy--- go on!) which very badly needed. I love foreign languages and I'm constantly using Google's language tools to figure out what I'm reading. That tool is more for mehan the prettifictaion of the blog, but you can use it if you want (my mother brought me up to share!)
Then the FAQ section is gone, no one was using it, so I'm trashing it. My links are now Blogrolled, which means I don't have to keep copy-pasting code onto my template. Lessee, what else? Oh yeah, right at the bottom, where it says Blogarama, is a little link to "Review My Site". I don't have to explain the use of that do I? : ) And the link to the Women's Blogroll, thanks to lovely Sunrayz.
Oh yeah, and in a shameless plug. My other blog has a contest going on, check it out!