We've come a long, long way together

Happy three year anniversary to me.

Wow. Three years. It makes me feel rather ancient, well, on the internet anyway. When this blog was created, I really had no idea that I'd be hanging on for that long. I'm not great with sustaining projects. Usually I lose interest halfway through. But maybe it's something about the medium--it's so bloody addictive, you know? Like an instant writer's kick, to type into something and then magically see your stuff out there, your stuff, unedited, vulnerable, waiting for feedback. I admit, I'm addicted to everything about this medium. When blogs finally go the way of those old Geocities homepages, and mirc chatrooms, I will be very, very sad.

I'm addicted to checking my stat counter, to looking for new comments, to Technorati even.

I'm addicted to thinking of things to blog about--looking at each situation from a third person perspective, never being completely in a moment, because a minute later I think, "I wonder if I can get a post out of this."

I'm addicted to having another personality, not me, not the real life me, but The Compulsive Confessor, eM, someone who people listen to sometimes, someone who occassionally makes other people laugh, someone who has spunk and the courage to say what she feels, someone who a few people think is worth revisiting.

I'm addicted to the other blogs I read, to be a voyeur in someone else's life, to know about the initials that rule them, the Saturday nights across the world, the random childhood memories, the being at a traffic light on a Monday morning.

And I'm really, really addicted to knowing what happened to me three years ago, knowing how my years have gone, knowing that once this was important to me, once I lived another life as another person, and it's all there, all so accessible, and it's awesome watching the way my writing has changed since I was 22 and new at this, to now, at 25, an old grizzled veteran.

Yay, me.

ps: Curious minds wanted to know more about the book--I'm not saying anything except that it should be out later this year or early next year. I'm doing another round of edits and it's immense fun, not to mention BLOODY TERRIFYING to think that little ol' me will soon be a Real Live Author. Wow. I love blogging.